Piece description from the artist
Soul Searching is exactly what the title says … searching one’s own soul … for answers or meaning. There are times in life where it seems like things are just clicking along and going fantastically well. Then there are times when it seems like your soul is being sucked out of your body. Nothing left but a questioning brain surrounded by tissue and bone. Nothing more. I know there is more. I believe in a creator. We live in a fallen world. Evil and corruption are around every corner. It’s all we see if that’s all we allow ourselves to see. I try to choose to see good in people. But sometimes it’s just hard. The days are long and bleak, and the nights are unending! Then something happens that turns it all around instantly. A paradigm shift. All that means is taking the negative cycle our brains can sometimes get into and break it. Who knows what does it? Sometimes for me it’s a surprise snowstorm that leaves pillowy snow that covers the brown winter landscape and transforms it into a winter wonderland. The sunshine hitting the snow that creates crystals and diamond shimmers everywhere. Snap! Cycle broken. At least temporarily.
If something like that can change our entire frame of mind, whether good or bad then…what is it about our souls that are so fragile? That such a fundamental change can happen so easily and so quickly? I say it’s feeling our souls connected to something bigger. Something our brains can’t possibly understand. But when we have a soul search like that then it leads me to believe that there is something magnificent at work that we can’t touch or see … but is very much there. Closer than our own skin.
I have been an artist all my life, ever since I could hold a pencil. I have always loved to draw and paint. My styles have varied over the years from realism to abstract and everything in between. The mediums I most enjoy working with are: oil, colored pencil, charcoal, graphite, watercolor, pen & ink, alcohol ink, and acrylic. Currently I am experiencing a mammoth amount of creative freedom working on abstract art.
In 2015, I donated one of my kidneys to a young woman who had only been born with one very diseased kidney. Since then she has been thriving and now going to college and living her life. What a blessing! I consider this a privilege and I'm so happy I was a match for her.
I have lived all over the country (U.S.). I primarily grew up in Woodland Park, CO. Following living in Woodland, I lived in Durango, CO, Farmington, NM, Houston, TX, Philadelphia, PA, Atlanta, GA and currently live in Montrose, CO (hopefully for good). I thankfully found my way back to Colorado. We live near Colona, in the shadow of Buckhorn Mountain (west/central Colorado) and absolutely love this place! It is remote, uncluttered, quiet, peaceful and beautiful. The inspiration I feel in my heart here is something I’ll be forever grateful for. It makes my soul sing!
I love to ski and am glad I live near some great places. Telluride, Crested Butte, Aspen, etc …when money allows. On February 12, 2017 I was in a ski accident in Telluride. Someone hit me from behind and knocked me unconscious for a few minutes (yes, I was wearing a helmet) and broke my collar bone. The guy hit me and left me for dead. He still has yet to be found. It's considered a felony to hit and run, just like in a car. Consequently, I suffered a concussion that has changed my life forever. My creativity has changed. Something happened to my eyes and I have a hard time doing the tiny details I used to do. But something also clicked in terms of how I approach my art. The freedom of abstraction has helped me heal and cope. Not only from the accident but with so many areas of my life. I have learned what true forgiveness means (to give as well as receive). I have a new appreciation for how fragile our lives really are and just how quickly life can be taken from us. A lot of things can change in the blink of an eye! That moment created a complete paradigm shift in my life. Mostly for the better.
I’m involved in an art mentoring program called Art Partners. I mentor a young boy (age 10). He created a piece that won first place in the student category of the Ouray Alpine Artist’s Holiday art show (nationwide) as well as 1st place in The Montrose Visual Arts Guild 2018 art show. I love the fact that I get to help shape this young man's creative future. He's my lil buddy.
There is an old cabin (100+ yrs old) on the property where I live that I have turned into my art studio. It’s my retreat and sanctuary. While I'm in this cabin, creativity just bursts forth in a riot of paint and color! This, I believe, is my heavenly father working through me. I'm still not sure what the grand purpose is but I keep my mind and heart open. I'm expecting adventure because, really, there's no way to know what's next. Like I always say, "the point is not to live forever but to create something that does."